I can remember many years of trying to fill voids in my life with people who I wanted to be there because they were fun, engaging, attractive, and charismatic. I wanted them there because I saw qualities in them that I wanted for myself; things that I knew I could see in myself but couldn’t quite find it on my own.

As I invited and attracted these people into my life out of desire and what I thought was necessity, a funny thing happened. Instead of me finding those qualities in myself, I was way too busy focusing on others and went further into despair. Instead of doing my own soul searching and finding peace in my heart, I focused on all I didn’t have because I was enthralled with how others were living. Shallow friendships led to increased loneliness and frustration, and the voids just got deeper.

Thank God He knows what we need!

I finally began to find peace and contentment in my heart when I started from within. I began to address the pain, the heartbreak and why I was afraid to look at myself. And it got messy; I lost some people that were very important to me and I had to face all the insecurities and lies I’d told myself through the years.

And God is so faithful; He began this journey in my heart long before I came back to Him this past summer. I made no effort in my relationship with Him for so long, and yet there He was, orchestrating the most amazing people to start coming into my life to pave the way for my future and to love me in ways I didn’t think were possible.

As I began to grow and heal, I began to find the charisma, energy and love in myself that I’d tried to find everywhere else. And when that happened, the most amazing woman walked into my life and I will never be the same.

Gia’s love has not only taken me to a new level of healing and gratitude, it has helped me see the world in a completely different way. I love more powerfully, I care more intentionally. I can see the love and light in every soul, even when they can’t see it in themselves and it’s part of my purpose to help them find it.

God placed her in my life for a million and one reasons, but the most important one is that He has called us to help others find Him so He heal their brokenness, just as He has done for us. The ministry He has placed in our hearts is exciting, messy, incredible, daunting and challenging- and we are ready.

Father God, thank you for bringing such an amazing woman into my life; may I never take her for granted. Thank you for the calling you’ve put on our lives, thank you for the work you are asking us to do. Thank you for working in my heart and my relationships long before I asked you back into them, and thank you for your relentless faithfulness.

I am so humbled, and I am so blessed. ❤️

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